Sunday, August 01, 2010

What a week

This week has been an emotional roller coaster! It was nothing that I expected.

Chase was SO excited to start school. He talked about it all the time.

The first day of school, Monday, went great. He was so excited and did a great job being separated from Mom. The first day was only 3.5 hours but he went with us to the name changing ceremony and that was about 2 hours.

The second day, Tuesday, he was fine. He was waiting at the door for me with his backpack on before it was even time to go. In line his look should have given me a clue that something was starting to happen. He didn't seem quite sure. He still did great and when I left was a happy camper.

The third day, Wednesday, was a hard day for both of my kiddos. First off, on Wednesday they only go to school from 8-12:30. I was talking to a friend outside of school for 2 hours. We were catching up and talking about the new school year. When we finally parted I thought that maybe Mrs. Tiede might need some help and it was so close to the end of the day at this point that I thought I'd just see since I was free. I found her on the playground because the kiddos were at recess. She did need help. The whistle blew and recess was over and then I saw Chase. He didn't look happy. He ran to me crying. I was shocked. I did not see this coming. I quickly walked him to his line and he was sobbing and wouldn't let go. I then pulled him off my leg and quickly left to go to the classroom. Mrs. Tiede had to get him so that he didn't follow. I didn't know weather I should leave or stay. I thought I'd try it out and if he was till crying then I'd leave. I'm not sure what was said but when he came into the classroom he walked straight to the carpet and wasn't crying anymore. I help Mrs. Tiede and then when I left I gave him a thumb's up and signed I love you to him. He waived goodbye and signed I love you and I left. He seemed fine when I left. Then the book buddies came in and Isabella was able to be his book buddy. When she left the classroom at 12:00 he then cried from 12:00 until the end of the day straight. When I picked him up he was sobbing and just ran to me and jumped into my arms and cried into my chest. I had to wait there with everyone watching because I didn't have Isabella yet. He cried until Isabella got out and until we got into the car. It took EVERYTHING not to cry. Isabella had a break down once we got home and said that she missed Mrs. Tiede. They were both so tired so they took a nap. Isabella slept for an hour and Chase slept for 2.5 hours.

Day four, Thursday, was HORRIBLE. Chase cried off and on all morning while getting ready and on the way to school. When I finally left him he was sobbing and crying for me not to leave him. He broke my heart on Thursday. As I walked out with parents watching me, telling me that it must be so hard, and hearing my son crying for me, I lost it. Angie put her arm around me and we walked out of the school with myself in tears. (Thanks Angie for being there for me.) I felt like I had deserted him. To be honest, Im not 100% okay with the new routine at school but I do as I'm asked. I called at 10:00 to see how he was doing and was told that he had been crying off and on all morning. Well, that didn't make me feel any better...it actually made it worse. I got off the phone and I cried off and on for the rest of the day. When I picked him up I expected to see him crying but he was so happy. He bounced to me and told me that he got a piece of candy for being happy and having a smile. I was SO happy to see that!!

On Friday, he didn't want to go to school. He cried to school and to his line. I told him that if he stopped crying I would ask Mrs. Tiede if she needed help in the classroom. He stopped and so I asked and she did. He was fine after that. I helped out in Mrs Tiede's class for 3 hours. Chase first starting crying right before recess because I originally told him that I would be leaving then but she needed help a little longer. I assured him that I would be staying until centers was over. He knew right when centers was almost over. He came over to me 5 times crying and telling me that he didn't want me to leave. He asked me if I could stay until the next recess. I ignored him and then he went and asked Mrs. Tiede. She broke the bad news to him and he again started crying. He went to his desk and I went to get my purse and he started crying again. I stood there for a couple minutes. Chase looked away and Mrs. Tiede mouthed for me to leave and I tried to quickly leave but he saw me and jumped up out of his seat and ran toward me. Mrs. Tiede caught him and I left. I was a little frustrated with him at this point because I had spend so much time in the classroom and I felt that he should have been better. I guess he cried a few more time and then was great the rest of the day. He was happy when I picked him up.

On Saturday we had Back to school day. It is a fun day for the kids and the parents learn all the the expectations for the year. We had a few tears on the way to Saturday school which was ridiculous. When I was finished and went to the playground to get them he didn't want to leave. He had tons of fun.

Here's to a better week next week...



1 comment:

Emily said...

Poor guy... sure hope this gets easier for him!